distraction

I must confess I've been distracted. There is one main focus of my life, one main passion, one main force that motivates everything I do…. Jesus. I've know about Jesus from a very early age, but I only fell in love five short years ago. It wasn't a trip, or a stumble, I fell and I fell hard. That love was so consuming, I devoted my life to it. Therefore my life is no longer my own and my plans are now God's plans. So I must confess I've been distracted. Busy making my own plans, and dreaming dreams as if they were my own. Forgetting who put them in my heart, and who will in turn make them come to past. I sit and fight with myself because I can't seem to conceal my weakness. Forgetting His strength is made perfect in my weakness. I must confess I've been distracted. In the quest to peal back the next layer of myself and discover who I am in a deeper way, there is no ignoring God. Because I, alone, can never understand the complex layers that make me who I am unless I first understand the one that created me. I will never understand my purpose until I understand my God. In strengthening our relationship and spending time in His presence, distraction seems to be my worst enemy. My husband said it best, " When God is out of sight he's out of mind, and when Im impatient with the weight of the wait, I step out of line". Stepping back in line is no problem, because God never leaves. Regaining focus is never a problem because God's love brings clarity. Remembering the passion and the dreams in my heart was given by God, not just for me, but the world at large. I must confess I've been distracted until now.