Monday, June 29, 2009

never again

I have learned so much this weekend...about myself, my career, and about people. The lesson that I came away with is the ONLY reason I don't wish to completely wipe this weekend away from my memory.
As you know, I went to Jersey for a fashion show thursday night. I said in my last blog that my expectations weren't very high seeing as Jersey isnt exactly the fashion capital of the world....well apparently I should have lowered then eeeeven more.
It was hands down THE worst fashion show I have ever been apart of. It was ghetto, unorganized, thrown together, and classless. Charging models $10 to have there make up done is absurd! How about YOU compensate the models, not charge them to do YOU a favor. And on top of all that I was personally was direspected and verbally attacked by one of the local designers. The show was a joke.

That taught me a valuable lesson that I will never forget:

NOBODY IS GOING TO TAKE CARE OF YOU IN THIS INDUSTRY. YOU HAVE TO LOOK OUT FOR YOURSELF.

I wasted sooo much time and energy doing something that was of no benefit to myself or anybody else. In the future unless I am COMPENSATED I will not being doing ANY travel for ANYONE. I value my craft too much to sell myself cheap. And I will no longer allow myself to be taken advantage of.

Im angry at myself more than anything because I ignored my instinct. I knew this show would not be beneficial to me or my career. But I still went. The "people pleaser" in me cause me to do something I had no desire to do. Thats my own fault and it wont happen again.

The thing is this isnt a hobby for me. Modeling is something I love, but it is also a career. Its not something I do because Im bord, It means a lot to me. So while, I love runway, in the future I will be MUCH more selective about WHO I work with and what shows I take part in. Compensation being the main determining factor. Because if they cant afford to pay there models, they most likely can't afford to put on a good show.

I HAVE GOT TO GET OUT OF COLUMBUS.
not mention the car broke down on the way back home..........fun :/

6 comments:

  1. YOU DESERVE TO BE COMPENSATED FOR YOUR JOB!--did i tell you i live in columbus also?--don't leave!!!

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  2. just thought i'd share some lyrics from one of my favorite songs:

    this world is not my home i'm jsut a passing through, my treasures are laid up somewhere beyond the blue. and when my lord returns my time here will be o'r so i can't feel at home in this world anymore.

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  3. don't be angry at yourself Tondi, I'll take care of you :)

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  4. LOL jeein! I know, I know.

    thanks nina :)

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  5. I'm glad I found your blog through Mane & Chic, I love it, and I love your hair! I'm trying to find the patience to transition to natural :/
    Anyways, trust your intuition more! And keep doing you, your pictures are amazing.. I'm a new follower

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  6. Hey Lady! Thanks for following and thanks for the comment! :)Good luck with your natural hair journey :)

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