never again

I have learned so much this weekend...about myself, my career, and about people. The lesson that I came away with is the ONLY reason I don't wish to completely wipe this weekend away from my memory.

As you know, I went to Jersey for a fashion show thursday night. I said in my last blog that my expectations weren't very high seeing as Jersey isnt exactly the fashion capital of the world....well apparently I should have lowered then eeeeven more.

It was hands down THE worst fashion show I have ever been apart of. It was ghetto, unorganized, thrown together, and classless. Charging models $10 to have there make up done is absurd! How about YOU compensate the models, not charge them to do YOU a favor. And on top of all that I was personally was direspected and verbally attacked by one of the local designers. The show was a joke.

That taught me a valuable lesson that I will never forget:

NOBODY IS GOING TO TAKE CARE OF YOU IN THIS INDUSTRY. YOU HAVE TO LOOK OUT FOR YOURSELF.

I wasted sooo much time and energy doing something that was of no benefit to myself or anybody else. In the future unless I am COMPENSATED I will not being doing ANY travel for ANYONE. I value my craft too much to sell myself cheap. And I will no longer allow myself to be taken advantage of.

Im angry at myself more than anything because I ignored my instinct. I knew this show would not be beneficial to me or my career. But I still went. The "people pleaser" in me cause me to do something I had no desire to do. Thats my own fault and it wont happen again.

The thing is this isnt a hobby for me. Modeling is something I love, but it is also a career. Its not something I do because Im bord, It means a lot to me. So while, I love runway, in the future I will be MUCH more selective about WHO I work with and what shows I take part in. Compensation being the main determining factor. Because if they cant afford to pay there models, they most likely can't afford to put on a good show.

I HAVE GOT TO GET OUT OF COLUMBUS.

not mention the car broke down on the way back home..........fun :/