Sunday, June 14, 2009
Sunday- in my childhood this day meant one thing and one thing only: church. It meant wake up when a parent calls, get dressed in something presentable, pile the family in the car, be at church till 2pm. But today, church no longer holds that big place in my life. Sunday is just like any other day. Its kind of strange when I think about it... but at the same time its comforting. I have recently realized that in the past the foudation of my realationship with God was the christian communtiy. The problem with that is the fact that the christian communtity is made up of people. These people are there build you up, keep you strong as you function as one body, pray for you as you pray for them. Its a great system. But at the same time they are PEOPLE, broken PEOPLE. Sometimes those people may hurt you or leave you. Then what? What happens when community is no longer? If your realationship with God was only held up by people once they are gone, so is God. Thats what happen to me. I lost community, lost God. It wasnt until recently that I realized that God and our realationship has to come first...the foundation for everything. Now I find myself going back to the basics...getting to know God with out the filter that was the christian community. Thats not to say I dont need church or Im above church, because church is needed, community is needed. Is todays church functioning correctly as a body? No. But thats another story for another time. Regaurdless of all that: as a christian i need community. Its like how a person that comes from a disfunctional family still loves and needs their family. Right now my community consist of my husband and a few friends and family. Down the road if God sees fit, He will place me in a church home, In the mean time He will remain my foundation.