Sunday, January 17, 2010

shattered illusions

I find it amazing that I spend so much time worrying that people may think bad things about me when in reality there ARE bad things about me... there are a lot of good things too... but why would I rather let people cling to an illusion that everything is all good and later be disappointed when they find that I, am in fact a flawed human. I am beautiful, but flawed nonetheless. For this reason I resolve to stop trying to filter my flaws before I present myself to the world.
This is me.... selfish, insecure, loving, passionate, strong, weak- ME.

I just can't help it...

My husband and I made one new years resolution. Just one. Here it is....
no bull shit.

Simple right?

Anything in our lives that doesn't bring us peace will either be changed or removed completely.

This excites me. This puts us on a whole other level of honesty. Not just with each other, but with in ourselves about the things we allow to steal our peace.

For me its fear, worry, and doubt. Three things that can paralyze you mentally, spiritually, and physically if you allow them to stick around. So my goal is to dispel all three. While I shatter illusions of a perfect me, and let go of the fear I am happy with who I am and where I am right now in this moment.

Love. it.


  1. i like that....i should probably make that one of my many resolutions for this yr....figured i've allowed too much bull and each time i end up being the one that's hurt....A person that loves herself does not allow that so yh....guess i dun luv me as much now do i...anyway...good one...guess we shud live and luv in the moments...!

  2. I just commented on another post and this was excellent. Again, it's like your thinking what I'm thinking?? But check how I just checked your complete profile and saw that you are a VIRGO too!!! I knew it was something.

  3. LOL thanks for your comments!! Im glad you feel where Im coming from ;)

  4. sorry but i love your blogg! you have a beautiful mind. Haven't even read teh full post yet..just read the first few sentences LOL. I sincerely pray your journey for truth leads u to it. God bless you.

  5. k..ive read the whole post now and i love ur blog even more lol!!